THE ROAD TO HEALING

When my husband and I started our family at the young age of 24, I knew that it was going to be challenging.   Having our first child and how to raise this little gift was a time of excitement, fear, anxiety, confusion, doubt about myself as a mom, and lots of trial by error.  I had an image of what parenting was like by observing others, what I’d learned from my own parents, and what I’d heard from other parents, but nothing could prepare me for being in the driver’s seat of this little life I had been entrusted with. As our second child came into our life I felt a little more at ease having had 4 years of being a mom under my belt. Although the same feelings didn’t seem to haunt me on a daily basis, I did have a new set of challenges in being a mom to 2 young kids and working full time. By God’s grace I… THEY… have lived through a majority of their childhood and I can say in a very honest, non-prideful manner that I’m so very proud of my boys and their character.

Here I now sit, 18 years later, with those same “first time mom” feelings with bringing 3 new children into our family through this crazy, amazing plan God calls “adoption”.  Yes, we were full aware of the possible challenges… attachment, language, bonding, culture adjustment, sibling relationships, etc… but just as with our first two sons, nothing I heard could prepare me for being in the driver’s seat.  Until you walk in someone’s shoes, you have no idea the road they have traveled.

As I’ve opened my heart and life up to the world through this blog with hopes and prayers of ministering to others, I have faced many amazing celebrations and many very difficult days as a new mom to these kids. One of the challenges we have faced is understanding the difficult life our son experienced living on the streets and the wounds that has left in his heart and mind. Because the road to healing is a common path traveled when adopting kids, I’ve decided to begin a series which will share what I’ve experienced on our own road to healing with hope that being transparent can help others on their own road to healing.  Being transparent is scary for me, but also necessary to give you a true understanding of this journey God has me on. My transparency will be solely about my own feelings and contemplations while sharing the facts with you surrounding our sons road, but it will be just that, facts, so I remain loyal to his story, feelings and respect of privacy.  God would not have me in this position, with this experience unless I could give Him glory and praise through sharing with others how He has a purpose for ALL things… even our wounds.

If you desire to be a part of this journey I encourage you to subscribe to the posts via email. If you are experiencing your own road to healing whether spiritual, mental or physical, I pray you will cling to the One true healer!

“Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing to it; I will heal my people and will let them enjoy abundant peace and security.”  Jeremiah 33:6